Not everyone's bitch...

I would like to know why if other people don't do what they say they're going to do and pretend that they were not supposed to then its ok. But if I don't jump at what they want me to do then they get all pissy. I'm over it. I'm done immediately answering my text messages and phone calls and all that other shit. Because I am not at everyone's beck and call. Im tired of trying to please people who are just out for themselves. Just done.

Sometimes the anticipation of something is better than the actual event. Or worse. It's interesting how all that works out. I think that looking forward to things is one of the things that make life great. I don't know why. It's funny tho. Everyone always looks forward to stuff. Good or bad. I think disappointment is one of those stem emotions. Like from it stems anger. Hurt.

Hmmmm...

Had a thought about religion the other day... How it's kind of selfish. According to the guy on tv preaching at like 11 at night, you are supposed to do this or that or whatever to go to heaven. Because god said so. Ok. Well what if you just lived your life trying to have fun and be the best person you could be. Say you did it because you felt it was right, not because you wanted to get to heaven. So does god just frown on those people and say no when you get to the gates? I personally don't think so.

Too tired to make sense...

Sitting here watching 'A League of Their Own'. Tired. Lol of course. I spent the day trying to make people happy, as is usually the case. I don't really know if I ever succeed. Haha. I have learned that it really makes people feel important and happy if you jump when they say your name. And say yes sir or yes ma'am. I do it as a respect thing (no, I'm not really from the south), and to let them know they have my attention. People will often say, 'you don't have to call me sir' etc. but I think deep down inside they like it. Anyway. I have this feeling that tomorrow's fun filled day will involve a lot of focus and concentration, neither of which are my strong suits. My strong suits are being able to constantly change my train of thought and follow others trains of though all of their twists and turns. Anticipating people's needs. That's what I'm good at! Ok rambling and lost my train of thought. I'm out. Peace!

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Insomnia... We meet again

As I watch hgtv and ponder that the Canadian people have either too much money or their money is worth more, I am once again hit with a bout of insomnia. So tired am I that I cannot sleep. So I watch tv and make fun of people on tv. And play with my phone. Yes I finally recently got a new phone and yay for me, I am so happy. But I do find myself on it too much. Which sucks but I realize it and curb it when I can. I suppose these hours of the night would be better spent working on my novel or cleaning my house. But as usual I sit and think of so many things I overwhelm myself. Oh well. Back to the show.